You had all that you wanted
but the ghosts that you haunted
have destroyed all the colors
in your head

I found you walking in the garden
You can think it's rather harmless
But your soul's got so much darkness
waiting to attack

Now you say, you're doing fine
But I've seen the things you hide
I just hope that over time
You will never ever have to face the
demons I've seen crawling through your mind

Now you say I'm full of hatred
and your feelings have all faded
but the picture that you painted
of denial

Is where you wandered round for days
But its a thing you should escape
before it can fully embrace
all that's inside

You can say, you're doing fine
But I've seen the things that you hide
I just hope that over time
You will never ever have to face the
demons I've seen crawling through your mind

When the clouds started to appear
I got sucked in all your fears
I've lost the one I hold dear
I think it's time to move away from here

MOTIVATION

I'd gotten the idea for this song a few weeks after a few talks with friends about the last e-mail from my former fiancee. She pretty much projected herself on me and everything she accused me of were in fact parts of her own character she could not embrace and wanted to get rid of.

I've always wanted to write a song called "The Garden" yet could never find the right mood or words for it. When she more and more often felt completely lost and then started fighting with me I needed a metaphor for her moodswings. I think I strummed some chords and thought they were perfect for a song and just started writing some lines that had been in my head for a few days, most about her last words to which I never responded due to it ending up in another endless fight, and we were pretty much done anyway. I could no longer convince her that whatever she thought of me was not what I was like, so what was the point of getting into another argument?

I felt that by describing her wandering around in a garden would be a perfect fit due to her being in a place only I'd been allowed into. I'd seen her flowers grow and trees die, so to speak, but while I found my way out every time we were there together she actually stayed and seemed to be embracing the things she hated about herself more and more, while all I kept doing was convince her that this was not the way to go, no matter what people around her told her. I've no idea what she's like now, probably acting as if she's got things under control but I know no one has seen the things I've seen, despite what she'd like to believe.

EXPLANATION

"I think it's time to move away from here" refers to me thinking the relationship just wasn't healthy for me anymore. It was too much drama, too much negativity and as soon as something would be even remotely positive there'd be another thunderstorm just waiting to happen. I felt sad, I had to leave her alone in a garden which merely felt like a scary dark forest now.