How many days will it take
until you realize you made a mistake?
I gave you the best of me
but you took the rest of me
and all I've got left is the blame

You've been fighting with me for weeks
Still you wanted me there in your dreams
But nonetheless
I still wish you the best
though it hurts a bit that it ain't with me

'cause in the morning when I wake up
and I miss your good luck charm
The pillow's still found it's way
back into my arms
Ladies smiling, everywhere I go I still see you
Like me all you want, it's still too soon

Everyone's acting relieved
You say you're better off now without me
But you started believing
the lies they were feeding
and your look on reality

They'd like to think they are the lucky ones
But tell me now who really won?
Is it the one who got rid of her?
Or the one who's to live with her?
Now that it's all said and done

'cause in the morning when I wake up
and I miss your good luck charm
The pillow's still found it's way
back into my arms
Ladies smiling, everywhere I go I still see you
Like me all you want, it's still too soon

You'll be facing difficult times
When you're gonna give love another try
It was blatantly wrong
for you to hold on to
whatever goes on in your mind

The image of me in your head
was something I could no longer defend
You hold on to the lies
So you can deny
that it was never me in the end

Wherever I walk
it still feels as if you're on my side
I've been trying to move on
but it's gonna take some time
Ladies smiling everywhere I go I still see you
Like me all you want it's still too soon

Ooohoohooh...

MOTIVATION

The pillow has still found it's way back into my arms came up in my head one day after I realized I'd still been waking up several times with a pillow in my arms, despite it being over for some time now. Girls had been flirting with me on the street and at concerts and I'd been flirting back, but whenever I returned home I often felt it was still too soon. I didn't do much with the lyrics as I was still writing other songs, but always intended this to be the last song I'd write about the relationship on which the entire album is dedicated to.

With this being the last song, I felt I had to put in there whatever I felt like saying to her as my final words. I'm not a guy of a few words, I've always got a lot to say, hence the 16 songs that came before this one, but with this one I'd just spend a few lines on everything that had happened and how I looked at things now that I was finishing a period of my life.

It still feels odd. Saying goodbye to a girl I loved so much and of which I knew she wasn't seeing things straight. Her last words were me blaming me of the breakup, how I'm cruel, but I know for sure that once someone will look at her like I did, and will see the things I saw she'll either be breaking down or turn all her feelings of anger and despair into anger towards her new partner, unless she'll come to accept that it never really was me who broke us up, but her mindset which just didn't work for her, and eventually didn't work for us anymore either.

I really like this one. I struggle with the vocals a bit here and there because it was written on a day my pipes just really rocked, and then recorded when I struggled a bit here and there. I'm satisfied enough with this, the message comes across and it's just generally a good pop/rock song with a little mix of some artists we both liked in there.

So yeah, this is it. There are still some ideas I've got for other songs but for now I intend to focus on other things unless I suddenly get pushed back into the clusterfuck that was her mom and dad, as it's been way too quiet on that front and I expect there to be another final chapter in that book. It might relight my fire towards my feelings of anger about the whole situation, but for now, this is it.

EXPLANATION

"Is it the one who got rid of her or the one who's to live with her" is clearly a hint at the situation with her mom. Who's luckier? The one able to eventually move on and find someone new, or the one who'll have to live with the burden of a person like her mother? Right now the situation hurts, but give it a few years and she'll be nothing but a distant memory while her daughter will have to put up with her and take care of her with the same pleasure her own mother takes care of her mother.

"You'll be facing difficult times when you're gonna give love another try" refers to me thinking on how she as well will sometime pick up dating again and eventually finding out that I wasn't so wrong in the things I saw in her. The odd thing is that when we just met she knew quite well on how she wasn't easy to deal with, but I saw true potential in her and saw what she could be capable of. After we'd broken up she had nothing left to go for yet thought all her personal achievements were more important than her psychological achievements.