When you find out
what you hide now
what you've kept so long inside now
When you find out that there's nothing left to save
I don't know now
Where I'll go now
'cause I thought I had it all now
But the things I did for you were all in vain

All alone
in the dark
where no one holds your heart
and you just can't move on to a better place
And I know
that it's hard
when there's no loving arms
Now there's only one thing left for me to say
You have been loved

You were crying
felt like dying
'cause they were underlining
All the things that you'd never achive
I was trying
to deny them
from all their critisizing
But they took it out on you instead of me

Playing games
with your heart
They knew how to split us up
With the chaos in your life that they'd create
And their hate
took us part
You lost all your faith in us
Now there's only one thing left for me to say
You have been loved

All your friends
never see
the side you showed to me
and everybody thinks you're doing fine
You'll pretend
and believe
that you're who you're wanna be
And I hope that you will get there over time
You have been loved
You have been loved
You have been loved
You have been loved
You have been loved

And I'm living lonely
And I'm living lonely
And I'm living lonely
And I'm living lonely

Lonely

MOTIVATION

I had the title of this song in my head for a long time now, but never managed to do anything with it until somewhere in July when I knew some melody, but never did much with it as I'd been writing plenty of other songs already. I made the first real demo on September 12 when I finally got the idea for the song structure. I couldn't do much with it as I needed more lyrics, and me being busy with other projects I didn't always find the right time to write stuff that would actually be in the same veign as the music. Some of the guitar solo was composed long before the lyrics.

It's quite clear as to what this song is about, I think. Ever since I met my ex-girlfriend she expressed the clear desire to be wanted, to be loved and needed, and when I made clear that I needed her and wanted her in my life, it came as a surprise to her, as she thought she was not deserving such things as she'd never gotten them before the way I gave it to her. As I'm typing this it's quite sad to think so, considering how I didn't understand why no one would ever tell her how amazing she really was.

The final chorus after the guitar solo describes on how she told me she'd been feeling a lot better in the last weeks of our relationship when we didn't see eachother, and that I was to blame for all the chaos in her life, even though the chaos was there long before I even met her. She'd gone back to putting up the same act she put up in front of me when I'd just met her, but I looked through it and saw the real her, as opposed to her friends and family who'd only gotten to see the act she was putting up in order to cope with life in general.

After a breakup there's always the moment when you start to say goodbye for good. I always take my time, I can't just move on to the other, but after a while it just happens. This song is me telling her that even though I'm not completely over her just yet, that she has been loved the way she wanted to be loved and my feelings for her never really changed, despite her moodswings and depressions. The song is quite dark and bluesy, and it describes the feeling of loneliness you experience when you're having dinner after dinner by yourself and go to bed without saying goodnight to anyone. I never expected myself to write this one, and I'm quite proud of how so little lyrics can describe such a big feeling.

EXPLANATION

"You were crying, felt like dying" refers to how she felt about her parent's disapproval about everything, how I saw it happen and tried to say something about their actions to make their take responsibilty for what they did and it eventually backfiring at their daughter as opposed to talking to me about it. The verses are sort of about her long nights before she met me, and how I'm quite sure she'll eventually have the same long and lonely nights again, especially after how she told me she had no one in her life but me.

"All your friends never see, the side side you showed to me" refers how when she's talking to her friends she puts on an act and it was quite clear they'd never seen the side of her I'd seen, despite what she'd like to believe.